Twenty-Six

Life is changing…

Now, more than ever, things are far from what they seem,

I’ve been delusional since 18,

but rooted since I was 6.

Moved like a fox while I carried the weight

(sometimes asked for more)

I buried the fate enemies wished upon me,

I heard people start to claim they made me, only because they lost their way.

I am the North Star — those that worship me in this life are proof.

Yes, only a Gemini would claim such a thing as the truth

& yes, every Star has its downfall,

& every nigga is a star,

but I’m like big homie Lil Shambho,

I could never die — I’m a Sprite, I’m a Spirit Ho.

I’ve lived this life digging my heels in and dancing on my tippy toes,

learning how to nurture my strides.

I have no ugly

I simply have people who are no longer fond of me — Life is changing,

as it always is,

things that I feel the deepest have been the hardest to explain.

Sweetness is hard to name,

so I make her say mine.

Until I see myself in the honey,

Until I become the bee,

Until I seek refuge in the scent of flowers,

Until the petals are where I sleep.

I know now,

all I’ve lost are only things I never had

I hear now,

God whispers to me

I see now,

I know nothing, but

I’m a man of no fear,

I’m a woman with no doubt,

how could you phase me?

Yes…

Life is changing.